Today was a good day, for the most part.
But why am I so focused on the negative things?

Jealousy, envy, a heavy feeling.
Helplessness and sadness
veiled by a semi-genuine smile.
Can you sense it?

Little spills of darkness,
ugliness peering through the torn veils of sunlight.
Trying to accept things as they have now come to be.

Still, tiny feelings of anger, guilt, sorrow,
squirm beneath the surface.

Emotions like a casing of living follicles, warm, teasing, drawing near, then always drifting away.

Discord of feelings, melancholy.
Clinging.
Need to let go.
Loosen my grip.

Too heavy, boxed in, cluttered, break away.
Emotions scatter, like a crumbling rock.
Layers Break off and drift away.

At the core, amidst the debris, a tiny glimmer.
The child cuddling a wispy aura.
A cloud of sorrow, how I've missed this feeling.

I want to cast it away, but instead I care for it, cherish it.
It embraces me and casts me through
the weightless,
hollow,
void...
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